Today is a shower day!  Again it is the little things that make me happy and a shower is one of them.  Keeping my long hair in a pony tail and hat all day for 4 days just feels gross.  Not wearing make-up helps, but putting sun block on multiple times a day doesn’t help my skin.  The boys finally caught a fish – a good one at that.  Ron pulled in a beautiful tuna fish and showed Matt how to clean it.  Of course I had to turn away as I was not having any of that instruction.  They lost me at the first sentence – “start cutting from the anus to the mouth” ugh.  Ron and Matt tried really hard to prepare fish so that I would eat it, but I could not do it.  I am a light hearted, white fish connoisseur and not a fan of Tuna.  With the fear of an upset tummy, I just did not want to tempt fate. However, I did try a small piece that was cooked more than it should have been and blackened – and have to admit that it was pretty good.

During this first week of the crossing I felt really lonely and small out in the middle of this vast ocean.  The sky and the ocean are vast as you can imagine and with no cell service or email communication (since I personally am not online) and 3 men it has been isolating.  Don’t get me wrong, my husband is one of the three men, but I can only take so many conversations about cars, boats, planes and the weight of oil.  I did not take into account that I built my life around women – I am surrounded by women all day (my company is 90% women), most of my friends are female, and of course there is my sister and my mom.  Not having female contact has really impacted my moods and my attitude.  I did not take that into account – so I am trying to read more feminine stories (love stories and silly girlie things).  I felt that way during the day and at night – but mostly at night as everyone else is asleep and I am truly alone at the helm.

Tonight however was different and brought along a new change of heart.  Off the bow, sides of the boat and the stern are billions of little diamonds shining at me – well actually it is phosphorescence, but diamonds sound so much more romantic.  If you have the right condition, calm seas, bright moon and clear evening and the beauty is amazing. It is so pretty, delicate, and fleeting – I want to reach down and capture it before it disappears.  In addition to the beauty of the sea, there is beauty in the sky.  For the past 2 nights, I have been greeted with a shooting star and then I have the pleasure of being surrounded by millions of other stars glittering up the night sky – it is beautiful and easily makes you believe you are part of something greater – something magical and something much bigger than the world you live in